celebrating fourth of July in US for the first time

for the past weeks, we had been to a lot of fun with the kids and my honey. went for CHERRY PICKING. gosh, i thought america is all about apple picking. lol. what a thought. my UP friends and I dreamed of being 'apple pickers". truly. we did. we imagined ourselves as apple pickers in the US, sharing house and all those things buddies do when they're far from home. i've never thought i'd be doing some picking in reality, apples or cherries. but wow...such fun we had. check our photo with all of us. we all have these buckets full of cherries and we could eat as many as we want while doing the picking. sorry for those who pick cherries all the time. hey you guys, i'm from the philippines and cherries there comes in a jar and preserved. never seen a real cherry tree or pick them from that tree. that for me was really awesome. thanks to my loving and thoughtful husband, i get to pick some cherry. yeeyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

the following week, we celebrated 4th of july at lake tahoe and reno. it was all fun until some phone call. anyway, we did have some fun. i love my honey sooo  much. he lived to his promise for making me happy. and i'm trying my best and i'm doing it to make him happy too. no matter what. even there're problems. problems are part of life. and thank God, we're surviving and adapting to it. 

we met over the top on the mountain of tahoe a newly wed couple. we took turn taking pictures of each other. it seems like there were several newly wed couples on the road that day. hmmm... choosing a wedding date that would everyone celebrates. what a great idea.

wishing you had a wonderful 4th of july everyone. we had a blast. my honey and i are doing just fine. thank you God. please please please bless our marriage. we love you.

big love has finally come...big YEHEY!!!

Oh  my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. I can really feel my honey's big love to me.

it started with small things, then, it has become big.

Everyday, my Honey, would show things which were telltale signs he love me so much. He makes it a point to put extra love on everything he does. He offers to cook, wash the dishes, cleaning the house, throwing the trash...everything. Love me daily and kisses me to wake me up. I'm a one so happy wife. God has answered my prayers, at last. Big Thanks, ohhh God.

While he's over at work...he would texts me, saying he misses me which I feel too...all the time. I've taken into reading the newspaper and we don't have a subscription. He makes it a point in bringing the newspaper for me. He knew that I have joined the newspaper's website where there is a reward per points for answering trivias taken from the daily newspaper. And he brings the newspaper daily to make me happy. And indeed, I'm truly happy.

My Honey and I has now become...best of friends, partner and most especially the loving husband and wife that I always imagine we will be. And this makes us both so happy with each other.

Problems...though I would like to call it, challenges are always there. We're not well off...yet we have food every meal...extra food to share with Robert (the homeless who lives in SacState, where husband works). I like to send food for him. And Honey will bring the food with him and give it to him when he sees Robert at his work. We have enough to pay the bills  on time and monthly. We both thank God for all these blessings every night as we read the bible together. This one makes me sooo happy too for my Honey, to join me in prayer.Last night, was especially special because he was the one who invited me that we would pray. Most of the time, I'm the one who would invite him

Happy, happy moments. Thank you so much, God. Everything we do, all our endeavors we offer all to you. We are nothing without your mercy, Lord. Hoping and praying that pretty soon, all immigration matters will come to it's finalization so, I could help my Honey. He is tired and has been working so long in his life. I pity and love him so much, I want things to ease up with him and me also.

marriage life with my honey

i pushed the baggage cart up the ramp...my heart beats faster and i don't know what i'm feeling inside. my love for him has never been a question. with him,  it's always moving forward.

my experience with him in LA was like a bunch of nerves, bursting of emotions, embarrassments, so much of discovering outs and a lot of emotional turmoil. i can't or will not remember our wedding ceremony together. it was like a bunch of shyness and self keeping of opinions for my self and i don't know what my honey has been thinking and feeling that time. we even don't have pictures because the photographer asked $100 for the copies of pics and when  i looked at them, they're not worth it. i simply not look my best.

life moves on. i've been here for almost 2 months now. my life is so different from my life in the phils. i keep telling my honey...i'm still feeling like the phils. is still my home where in fact we'll be here for quiet some time. well, 2 months is not that long yet though. i do love my honey and in between heartaches, pains and sacrifices...we have happy moments together. and i'm glad...well...pretty thankful to God that we're together. i love being with him. it's just that the toll of life and my lonely struggles to belong and stand on my own two feet that's making this life a bit sad.

i discovered some drawbacks and wonderful things in the US since I arrived. I wanted to ride the bus so I could at least explore on my own but my honey doesn't like me riding alone without a cellphone. ohhh well.... the US is a lonely place to be especially if you're new and don't know how to drive and of course...don't have a car just like me.

for me, phils was like a beautiful dream for me...and that the US is when the time i woke up and realized i was living on a dream and that i need to face reality now. facing reality is not really a bad thing. reality is the present and that's where i am now. i need to go out from my comfort zone and face what's God in store for me here.

i thought marriage is like a partnership, a give and take relationship, a love after love as the way my honey says it, but life is unfair and not perfect. marriage for me now...is not that ideal......... yet. but i know this will pass by and another one would come along to challenge as always. i wanted to be always appreciative of what i got, i really do. but the human in me...would always want to shout out and complain. which i shouldn't have.

what i could thankful for is that, my husband is my bestfriend. he's the one i talk to everyday...and i can say anything to him. thanks to him,he is very patient, understanding and he told me...he is a caring and loving husband. maybe he is. but he needs to work more on it cause sometimes...i can't see it. or maybe i'm just blind or not appreciative. i don't know.

i'm looking forward for a better future. i miss my family back home. i miss them so much. now i realized how much they love me, how much they care for me compared to how i am cared and loved now based on how i feel.small love, big love...i welcome them all. small love is better than no love at all. i know that one day...small love will grow into a big love. i can't wait. pls pls pls pls....come. and i pray...that i would know and feel the love. pls give me the wisdom to know that it has grown into a BIG BIG love. pls come to me...LOVE.